i cant sleep! i need my rest before my grandfather's big birthday bash in the afternoon. its the boredom that goes along with insomnia that really bites. what is with me these days? i am always hungry, i mean constantly! its ridiculous. its carbs that i crave too french fries, croissants, potato chips, bagels, etc. yuck what's wrong with me? i guess its just a funky food phase.
job prospects are coming either as an executive assistant or as a wardrobe coordinator for TV and/or movies. the latter is the one im hoping for because obviously i have a passion and interest in fashion and it would be a great experience.
romantically im doing poorly. i dont even go out that much anymore. the monotony of just going on dates with people that i didnt have true feelings for just wasn't cutting it. i'd rather be alone than bored wondering. i did go on one date recently with my ex kevin but it was rather lackluster. i realized that my feelings for him had completely dissolved. an emotionally unavailable selfish 28-year-old baby just isnt appealing to me any longer.
its so hard to find balance in my life. work, love, friendships, self-growth. but im working on it every day.