i finally found the cable that connects my camera to my laptop. ugh it was in the last place i would have ever looked! it was under my freakin bed! i have no idea how it got there. anyway heres a recent picture of me with my fugly hair cut. i cant wait to grow it out and dye it blonde. but for now im giving my hair a much needed rest and just letting it stay natural for a bit.

not much has been going on except my dad got incredibly angry with me for not paying my utility bills for a few months. they were going to shut my electricity off if i didnt pay it but i had no idea that the bills had mounted up that much. korean mail is really different from american mail. plus i cant read it that well so i usually just toss it aside. i know its irresponsible. but thats what ive been doing for the past couple months.

i wish i didnt have to worry about bills. if i had a job than i wouldnt have to ask my dad for every nickle and dime. its getting to be tedious. and god knows how long its been since ive been able to spend money in a leisurely fashion. so all i do all day is im stuck at home, confined since i cant really afford to do anything. just a few days ago i went jogging and found a dance studio that i was thinking about checking out but then i thought whats the point? i have no money to join anyway. it was depressing. the only thing i dont scrimp on is food since thats really an essential. but really other than that i dont spend my money on anything else, nor do i have a choice. well food and cigarettes. wow this is turning out to be a really whiny entry. so i'll stop now.