Supper and Bubbly

the fiance and i enjoyed a bottle of veuve at the hyatt. was tres romantic...
look at the tiny muffin they give, i didnt eat it because i was so full from dinner



this was dinner, a mushroom risotto, look at the restaraunts name "Noah" beautifully emblazoned on a big slice



sorry for the lack of outfit posts i always come home exhausted

The Most Sexiest Korean Man

First Outfit/Accessories Post

korea is going gonzo over the world cup. i could care less about soccer. i tripped over a soccer ball in the fifth grade and still have a scar from the concrete induced wound. since then ive hated the sport.

this is my personal blog but also is a fashion blog so ive decided to post my outfits, accessories, beauty tips, etc. all the outfit posts are taken with a self timer on my samsung NV24HD VLUU at my studio with my wall paper and riff raff as my back drop. i apologize ahead for the lack of photographic tactfulness.

the fiance and i at a water park (hence the lack of makeup and chloe sunglasses)

vintage stone and husk bracelet & cholo sterling silver bracelet

chain link, skull rhinestone, skull and spread eagle rings

side shot of today's outfit (american apparel white shirt worn as a dress)

the temporary glitter tattoo that i got on my decolletage to match my gold bikini for the water park (isnt it pretty?)

my old trusty lamb skin prada purse

this is what my house looks like. i have racks and racks and piles and piles of clothes, shoes, purses, jewelry, toiletries. i could run a miniature bergdorf's *sigh if only i had saved my money i could run a freakin hedge fund. but what can i say? fashion is my first love.

my one month anniversary gift from the fiance

i love miu miu and prada shoulder straps, they're thin and ergonomic

changed into my $16 psychedelic leggings

like my messy studio? wine bottles, mattress and flat screen tv on the floor bahahaha thats just me! =)

headshot w/ my bitch face going on (chanel sunnies, vintage scarf)

a blurry close up of my old aldo shoes that i wore to death

hand cuff bracelet, red leather bracelet w/ some french phrase written on the silver plate that i can't seem to decipher and it has a tiny eiffel tower attached to it, vintage african motif wooden bracelet

special edition korean designer coffee bean ring (on ring finger), owl rhinestone ring, wing ring

jeez i really need a nail make over. but at least this is a great shot of my silk based wall paper. its a snake skin motif, very realistic no? i custom ordered it and it took me hours to find it!

back shot (my tattoo is in greek, it means "give me a place to stand and i will move the earth" by archimedes)

i know my toes look disgusting because theyre peeling from all the stilletos and boots i wear but this was by far the most beautiful and expensive pedicure i have ever gotten. the flowers that are glued to my toe nails are ceramic and imported from japan. seriously with the swarvoski crystals off setting the flowers this looks so much prettier in person.

i went into a cartier boutique in seoul and tried on their draped trinity necklace and fell in love. i wish i had $9,000 to just spare = ( although i didnt make a purchase the staff was very gracious when i purchase this necklace (which i will one day soon) i will go back there

Leisure and Desirables

i love this whole look. im totally going to try to hunt down a large deep sea foam green silk scarf. i also am digging the givenchy bag. ive had my eye on it for about a year now but theres a few other bags that i find slightly more desirable.

i love megan fox's dress. love the the color (i usually hate red but i think its perfect on this dress) front cross detail, the flower, and shoulder pads along with the beautiful neckline.

however on a sidenote foxy looks like she has gotten some work done on her face, which was totally uneccessary. ive been considering getting my lips done. she seems to have gotten her lips, cheeks, and even her forhead done. what a shame she was more beautiful before the work. however her nose job which she got done before she made it big with transformers, was done really well and was necessary but she didnt need anything else.

i hate camping, but i wouldnt mind lodging in a cabin with some friends or a significant other and snuggling up on the porch.

i love this picture because it reminds me of my friends and my birthday celebrations. we always threw each other big bashes. but now ive been in korea for over 2 years now and we've all sort of grown apart. it makes me a little sad actually.

i wish i could wear shorts and sneakers and still look cool but im just too short to pull it off.

i love the alexander mcqueen advertisements for their sunnies. i recently went into a mcqueen boutique and while i was browsing i teared up. i cant believe such a wonderful talent is gone.

i love this assymetrical embroidered heart neck top

i want a skirt just like that in that color and style with the perfect side slit

digging the fringe top and bobby socks with open toe platforms

one of the best denim on denim looks i've seen by far. i love her necklace and her low scoop neck navy tank. oh and her loose casual hair style tops off the look perfectly. the fact that she rides a motorcycle/scooter makes her that much cooler.

these are from the bottega venneta men's collection from the milan runway.

i absolutely love this look! i wish they made those shorts in my size!

Inclinations

i am inclined to be incredibly impulsive. im impatient, always get what i want, (ok maybe not everything but mostly everything), and am usually reasonable but can be emotional at times just like anybody else.

i decided that i need some space from my boyfriend. we moved way too fast. and i feel that we need to know what it feels like to miss each other. maybe its because his job as a stockbroker keeps him so busy and exhausted he cant spend as much time with me as we both want.

i dont work so i have a lot of leisure time. i get my nails done, get facials, massages, go shopping. i have lunch with the few girlfriends that i have. but most of the people i know are men, who i am trying to avoid. i end up spending my late nights with a glass of wine watching breakfast at tiffany's and pining for my boyfriend. i understand he cant come over every night and i dont even want that. but seeing him only twice a week is just not enough. sure he calls like 10 times a day. but talking on the phone just isnt enough.

i even considered breaking up with him. it would be hard to lose him. but i think after a few days i'd be alright. im going to LA in august for a month. maybe we'll take a break then. i guess i dont actually love him. i really thought i did when we first met but as time goes by its fizzling away.

Things That I Want

Hermes saffron high waisted gown (US$11,500! but worth every penny its part of John Paul Gaultier's last collection)

Hermes Crocodile Constance

Porsche Cayenne Turbo (as my everyday car)

Ferrari Enzo (with black exterior and tan interior)

I Fucked Up

It's been two days since our one month anniversary. He bought me the white calf skin Miu Miu tote that I wanted to use for summer.

And what do I do? On the night before our anniversary I call up an old friend or oppa (which means older brother or guy in korean) and he came over. We talked all night over Pear Absolut and tonics (yum). We both got tipsy and even the oppa was like "I wasn't sure if it was right to come over or not, youre in a happy relationship." (We had hooked up twice before in the past before I met my boyfriend) I was like it's fine nothing will happen. He lied down to rest his eyes for a bit and I layed next to him.

I started bringing up my kinky aggressive sex life, what I liked, etc. Of course he got turned on and I totally seduced him. The sex was amazing perhaps because it was so wrong. The eerie thing is the oppa kept asking me "What if your boyfriend just shows up?" I assured him that he never does that. He always calls before he comes over and its not like he has a key or anything. Well what do you know? Literally five minutes after we were done having sex my phone rings and it's my boyfriend calling to take me out to lunch for our anniversary. He told me he'd arrive in 15 minutes. The oppa scrambled out of my apartment and I quickly cleaned up the evidence. I was still super drunk at 11:30 am and I needed to come up with an excuse as to why I was drunk.

So I told my boyfriend that I drank with a girlfriend at my house because I was stressed about family issues. Which is true. I even cried when we got home from lunch. The tears were out of guilt. But I told him the concerns I had about my family instead of the truth about what had just happened. How can I be so deceitful? I am an evil fucked up person. I don't know why I did it. It's out of insecurity and the fear that one day he may leave me. It's like I want to beat him to the punch before he can ever hurt me. I guess my past has come back to haunt me. Fuck all my ex-boyfriends. This is all their fault.

He's getting me a ring its not exactly an engagement ring but it sort of kind of is. A thin white gold and diamond eternity band next month when he gets his next paycheck. He spends all his money on me. And calls every time he has a spare moment. He's attentive and loving as ever. I felt super guilty and called my sister and balled my eyes out to her. She scolded me and told me just to make sure that it never happens again. But the strange thing is I've kind of pushed it aside now and I'm ok with myself. I don't feel horrible. Am I a monster?